Lies

For how long was it all a lie?
How many times did he
Say those three words
And not mean it?
How many times did he
Think about breaking my heart?
He said that all he wanted
Was to hold me forever.
He said that he loved me
More than anything.
He told me he thought about me
All day and all night.
So now as I lay here,
Tasting the salty tears
Drip down my face,
I can't help my wonder,
For how long was it all a lie?

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I Want To Cry

I just want to cry.
I don't know why.
I just do.

Maybe it's because I'm overwhelmed.
There's too much out there
Not enough in here
And I just can't handle it.

Or maybe it's this song.
It elicits a feeling from me-
The mixture of his voice,
And the echoing guitar-
A feeling of pure amazement.

Perhaps it's that I'm confused.
I like him. I think I do.
But he is a mystery
And I just want to give up
On this whole idea.

Or maybe, just maybe...
Maybe in the back of my mind-
As much as I deny it
And as much as I honestly hate him-
Maybe I still miss him.

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Dear God

Dear God,

You didn't create me
My parents did.
You didn't create earth
A bang did.
You didn't create light
Science did.
You didn't create whales
Evolution did.
You didn't create happiness
Our minds did.
You didn't create sin
Our instincts did.
You didn't create poverty
Laziness did.
You didn't create death
The passing of time did.
You didn't create faith
Our own insecurities did.
And God, you didn't create us.
We create you.

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