I Still Have Hope

Sunday, August 1

lead weights falling from the sky

scream to just release my burden

hear how loud the voices cry

how long does it take to die?

how long will i shut my eyes?

how long till i claim what's mine?

how long should i trust this lie?

feel it tumbling in my head

don't know how to keep on worrying

though these doubts are never dead

what is felt is never said.

what is thought is cannot be read.

what is roaring my head?

what is it that you have fled?

time elapses like a flight

yet this fire would seize burning

here we hope, we wish, we might

we will never lose this fight

we will not put out the light

we will always be alright

we will fall in love tonight.

I'm Scared

Wednesday, July 29

i'm scared

nightmares don't phase me

the boogyman can't make me flinch

and ghosts to me are foggy angels

but i'm scared.

im scared

about tomorrow

and the future

and what disappointments it will bring

i'm still hopeful

but i'm scared.

i'm scared

this won't last

as much as i want it to

as much as i know i'll try

i can't help

but be scared.

This Too Shall Pass

Saturday, June 17

whenever pieces of the sky

fall upon my head and knock me down

to the point where

im riddled with bruises and scars

and my knees and hands are bloody

and i can feel the dams about to break

and release my broken tears,

i've always head one thought

and a collection of memories

close enough

to make it all go away...

so now that your sky is falling

and your sprawled on the floor

trying to stop

your scraped knees from bleeding

and your bruised hands from aching,

and even though salt water

leaks down your cheeks,

i hope you can hold me

and all the times we spent together

close enough

to make it all go away.

I Want To Live

Friday, July 2

i'll draw a face a day

just so i can live

all these different lives

that aren't mine.

i'll draw happiness and anger

jealousy, envy

starstruck lovers in grasp

i'll draw a face a day.

with each face comes a life

so fresh and clean and new

in its own graphite home

nothingl ike this world.

i'll draw a face a day

and then when it's erased

i look up at the world

and see reality.

Concentrate on Ripples

Tuesday, June 29

concentrate on ripples

never let them fade

keep them growing yonder

where stillness had once laid.

see them getting stronger

a growing entity

with each new passing droplet

their will become more free.

until that outer rim

it never seems to end

a forced backed by the gods

all cracks and lines it mends.

now concentrate on ripples

that never seem to fade

until they just stop growing

and once more stillness lays.

When You Love Me

Sunday, June 20

when i picture you with me

i hear the raging symphony.

and when i see your starry eyes

i feel so good i wanna cry.

when if feel you lips on mine

all of space just falls in time

and when your whispers reach my ears

you wash away all of my tears.

when you hold me close and tight

i dream of you all through the night.

and when you listen to my words

you take away all of the hurt.

when your skin rubs up on mine

the sun never seizes to shine.

and even when your not with me

our love will last eternally.

How Do I Describe This?

Saturday, June 19

being with you

is like listening to your favorite song

on full blast in a dark room.

its mindblowing.

my mind blanks

and you soul wanders up the hill

running faster

and the journey continues.

its something new.

every new moment

kindles old experiences into new feelings

that are warm

and comfortable.

its magic.

you hold tomorrow's magic

something i could never imagine along

without you

your touch, your heart.

its love.