I Want To Cry

I just want to cry.
I don't know why.
I just do.

Maybe it's because I'm overwhelmed.
There's too much out there
Not enough in here
And I just can't handle it.

Or maybe it's this song.
It elicits a feeling from me-
The mixture of his voice,
And the echoing guitar-
A feeling of pure amazement.

Perhaps it's that I'm confused.
I like him. I think I do.
But he is a mystery
And I just want to give up
On this whole idea.

Or maybe, just maybe...
Maybe in the back of my mind-
As much as I deny it
And as much as I honestly hate him-
Maybe I still miss him.

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Dear God

Dear God,

You didn't create me
My parents did.
You didn't create earth
A bang did.
You didn't create light
Science did.
You didn't create whales
Evolution did.
You didn't create happiness
Our minds did.
You didn't create sin
Our instincts did.
You didn't create poverty
Laziness did.
You didn't create death
The passing of time did.
You didn't create faith
Our own insecurities did.
And God, you didn't create us.
We create you.

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One Night

Friday, October 15

one night

thats all it took

for her life to change.

she wasnt so innocent anymore.

a couple hours

is how long it took

for everyone around her

to see her differently.

one party

is all it took

for her friends to think

she wasnt the same person.

one mistake

and all of a sudden

anyone who knew what she did

lost all respect.

one drink

just one drink

and she went from a prude

to an easy slut.

just one night...

I Want You

Friday, October 15

It started as disparity
I was lonely
I was broken
I was withdrawing
I was falling down, down, down.
But now I don't know
I want a little more
I want to go somewhere
I want to be with him
I want to feel him up, up, up.
It began with lust
I needed to be kissed
I needed him to feel me
I needed skin on skin
I needed it to be fast, fast, fast.
But now it's a little more
I'm dying to know him
I'm dying to please him
I'm dying to tell him
I'm dying to take it slow, slow, slow.

I Need Someone

Sunday, October 10

I've been alone for some time now

No one to kiss
No one to touch
No one to cry about
No one to touch me
No ones hair to grab
No one to open up to
No one to brag about
No one to write about
No ones name to write
No one to dream about
No ones breath to taste
No ones arms to fall into
No ones clothes to wear
No ones name to scream
No one to complain about
No ones tongue to recognize
No one to imagine futures with
No one to break boundaries with
No one to spend a lonely night with

And I can't stand it much longer.

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I'm Back

Sunday, October 10

I'm not actually inspired

Well, I am.

But I'm inspired

By not being inspired

I've been gone for so long

That all the emotion

Has just been

Locked

The animal inside of me

In a cage

With nothing to pounce on

And all the anger

Has been gathering

A hurricane inside me.

I've never before realized

How much this,

Inspiration,

Has helped me.

Without it... I'm lost.

I Am Strong

Friday, September 10

i can stand on my own two feet

without your walls holding me up.

i can make my own choices

without your wants suffocating me.

i can breath my own air

without you taking my breath away.

i can talk to other people

without wondering what you'd think.

i can live my own life

without constantly wondering where you are.

i can constantly be happy

now that i know you are gone.