I Want You

Friday, October 15

It started as disparity
I was lonely
I was broken
I was withdrawing
I was falling down, down, down.
But now I don't know
I want a little more
I want to go somewhere
I want to be with him
I want to feel him up, up, up.
It began with lust
I needed to be kissed
I needed him to feel me
I needed skin on skin
I needed it to be fast, fast, fast.
But now it's a little more
I'm dying to know him
I'm dying to please him
I'm dying to tell him
I'm dying to take it slow, slow, slow.

I Need Someone

Sunday, October 10

I've been alone for some time now

No one to kiss
No one to touch
No one to cry about
No one to touch me
No ones hair to grab
No one to open up to
No one to brag about
No one to write about
No ones name to write
No one to dream about
No ones breath to taste
No ones arms to fall into
No ones clothes to wear
No ones name to scream
No one to complain about
No ones tongue to recognize
No one to imagine futures with
No one to break boundaries with
No one to spend a lonely night with

And I can't stand it much longer.

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I'm Back

Sunday, October 10

I'm not actually inspired

Well, I am.

But I'm inspired

By not being inspired

I've been gone for so long

That all the emotion

Has just been

Locked

The animal inside of me

In a cage

With nothing to pounce on

And all the anger

Has been gathering

A hurricane inside me.

I've never before realized

How much this,

Inspiration,

Has helped me.

Without it... I'm lost.

I Am Strong

Friday, September 10

i can stand on my own two feet

without your walls holding me up.

i can make my own choices

without your wants suffocating me.

i can breath my own air

without you taking my breath away.

i can talk to other people

without wondering what you'd think.

i can live my own life

without constantly wondering where you are.

i can constantly be happy

now that i know you are gone.

I Did It

Saturday, August 29

this is supposed to be freedom

this is supposed to be salvation

i'm supposed to be relieved

then why do i feel so trapped?

now I'm supposed to have choices

i'm supposed to have possibilities

i'm supposed to find someone better

then why am i now so alone?

i'm supposed to be happy

this is supposed to be my decision

supposed to be what i wanted

then why do i want to take it back?

because...

this is supposed to be hard

and i'm supposed to cry

and its supposed to hurt inside

and its all supposed to get better.

Breaking Up

Saturday, August 7

I'm scared your love is fading
But mine just keeps on staying
And I'll soon have to learn
Just how to let you go.

I'll feel like I'm the one
Who'll leave this scarred and torn
And you'll just walk away
So able to let go.

I'll sit there in the dark
Wondering where you are
And I'll guess the reasons why
You wanted to let go.

And although I won't forget
The memories that we had
I'll have to pack my things
And finally let you go.

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I'm In a Plane

Thursday, August 5

Thirty five thousand
That's how many feet between
Me and solid ground.

Things I've never seen
Places I've never been
I can see it all.

All it is, is lights
But I still know that somethings
Hide in the darkness.

Here, up in the clouds
Here, I can see everything
The entire world.

But from way up here
The whole world is just a blur
I can't see a thing.

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