Too Much Noise

March 18, 2011

light. light.

take away this sheet of black.

lead me. far away. hold me. bathe me.

in silence.

silence.

the immensity of this timeless jungle

is lost

in the noise. noise. noise.

light.

make it quiet again.

noise is black.

silence. light.

white.

Live

March 14, 2011

i want to face life

i want to be free

i dont want all the walls

just the warm open sea

i'll make my mistakes

i'll learn what i see

i'll live by my footsteps

i want to be free

Who Am I?

February 26, 2011

what is this face?

what are these hands?

how could these eyes stand to watch such mutiny?

i dont know me.

this shell of me

has some demon inhabitant

some sinner.

who is that sinner?

who am i?

is this me?

my face.

my hands.

these things ive done.

i am the sinner.

Alone - For Now

now that his timeless presence has faded

i realize that i hate being alone.

i hate all the emptiness left in my bones.

i hate this old ground; i lay broken and jaded.

in his warm puddle i had once waded

but now i have only a cold, empty groan,

dreams of a feeling to me he had shown.

why do i feel so cheated? so raided?

but on i must walk though this graveyard of hope

cause surely i know this is not where it ends

for farther along this precarious slope

ill find someone else who can make my heart bend

ill find someone else who can tug on my rope

ill find someone else whom my heart may defend.

The Mountain

mountain! mountain! bathed in sleet

'neath my cold and blistered feet,

what was running through my mind,

and why'd i choose to make this climb?

seconds, minutes, hours, weeks

on your deadly falls and peaks

through the snow and ice and wind

frostbite, sickness, bare flesh skinned.

i was nearly to the top

it was far too late to stop

was it worth it - all of this?

will the pain be gone with bliss?

up your slopes i did prevail

yet most others try and fail

whyd i make it? am i great?

was it luck? or was it fate?

whyd i choose to not turn back?

whyd i keep my feet on track?

while my toes and fingers froze

spirit, hope, and courage rose.

mountain! mountain! bathed in sleet

'neath my cold and blistered feet,

what was running through my mind,

and whyd i choose to make this climb?

Everyone Else

Everyone around me is happy
And they're leaving me here in the dust.
I used to be the happy one
That had someone to love.
And now I don't.
I'm fading in the background
Watching it all work out
For them.
Nothing's working out for me.
The boy I loved
Left me.
The I like
Doesn't feel the same way.
What I want
Isn't coming.
Instead I watch
As they all steal my dreams
And happy endings
And prince charmings.
Instead I watch, alone and cold.
I watch everyone around me be happy.

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If Your Reading This, It's For You

You make me so sad.

Why can't you see how beautiful you are?
The twinkle in your eyes
The kinks in your hair
The devil in your smile
The magic in your heart
Why would you want to destroy something so beautiful?

You make me so sad

Why can't you tell how brilliant you are?
The power in your pen
The wit in your words
The truth in your lies
The life in your skeleton
Why are you hurting something so brilliant?

You make me so sad.

Why are you doing this to yourself?
The cuts on your legs
The drink in your glass
The thoughts in your head
The words in your mouth
Why won't you stop?

You make me so sad.

P.S. If anything were to happen to you, it would be my fault, because this whole time I could have stopped it. Please stop. I love you too much to watch you do this.

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