I Am Strong

Friday, September 10

i can stand on my own two feet

without your walls holding me up.

i can make my own choices

without your wants suffocating me.

i can breath my own air

without you taking my breath away.

i can talk to other people

without wondering what you'd think.

i can live my own life

without constantly wondering where you are.

i can constantly be happy

now that i know you are gone.

I Did It

Saturday, August 29

this is supposed to be freedom

this is supposed to be salvation

i'm supposed to be relieved

then why do i feel so trapped?

now I'm supposed to have choices

i'm supposed to have possibilities

i'm supposed to find someone better

then why am i now so alone?

i'm supposed to be happy

this is supposed to be my decision

supposed to be what i wanted

then why do i want to take it back?

because...

this is supposed to be hard

and i'm supposed to cry

and its supposed to hurt inside

and its all supposed to get better.

Breaking Up

Saturday, August 7

I'm scared your love is fading
But mine just keeps on staying
And I'll soon have to learn
Just how to let you go.

I'll feel like I'm the one
Who'll leave this scarred and torn
And you'll just walk away
So able to let go.

I'll sit there in the dark
Wondering where you are
And I'll guess the reasons why
You wanted to let go.

And although I won't forget
The memories that we had
I'll have to pack my things
And finally let you go.

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I'm In a Plane

Thursday, August 5

Thirty five thousand
That's how many feet between
Me and solid ground.

Things I've never seen
Places I've never been
I can see it all.

All it is, is lights
But I still know that somethings
Hide in the darkness.

Here, up in the clouds
Here, I can see everything
The entire world.

But from way up here
The whole world is just a blur
I can't see a thing.

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I Still Have Hope

Sunday, August 1

lead weights falling from the sky

scream to just release my burden

hear how loud the voices cry

how long does it take to die?

how long will i shut my eyes?

how long till i claim what's mine?

how long should i trust this lie?

feel it tumbling in my head

don't know how to keep on worrying

though these doubts are never dead

what is felt is never said.

what is thought is cannot be read.

what is roaring my head?

what is it that you have fled?

time elapses like a flight

yet this fire would seize burning

here we hope, we wish, we might

we will never lose this fight

we will not put out the light

we will always be alright

we will fall in love tonight.

I'm Scared

Wednesday, July 29

i'm scared

nightmares don't phase me

the boogyman can't make me flinch

and ghosts to me are foggy angels

but i'm scared.

im scared

about tomorrow

and the future

and what disappointments it will bring

i'm still hopeful

but i'm scared.

i'm scared

this won't last

as much as i want it to

as much as i know i'll try

i can't help

but be scared.

This Too Shall Pass

Saturday, June 17

whenever pieces of the sky

fall upon my head and knock me down

to the point where

im riddled with bruises and scars

and my knees and hands are bloody

and i can feel the dams about to break

and release my broken tears,

i've always head one thought

and a collection of memories

close enough

to make it all go away...

so now that your sky is falling

and your sprawled on the floor

trying to stop

your scraped knees from bleeding

and your bruised hands from aching,

and even though salt water

leaks down your cheeks,

i hope you can hold me

and all the times we spent together

close enough

to make it all go away.